Are you climbing your own peak?

After announcing my new endeavour on facebook I decided to get out of my apartment as fast as possible, take no connected device with me, just my journal, a book, some money and the intention to stay away for as long as possible. I was afraid that if I stayed, I will check facebook all the time and then become depressed if it does not turn out as I had wished. In my train of thoughts I completely neglected the idea that eventually I will have to go back. Naive, unconscious me was doing the steering.

After cruising with my bike, taking a break in a cozy cafe, some reading, journaling and more cruising, rain decided to make its appearance, so the time had come for me to go home and face my fears. I opened the facebook app on my phone and found that “these are very little likes”. Failure, the first thought on my mind. One of my biggest fears had come true. Did it however? On whose terms did I fail I asked myself? That question changed a lot for me. It put everything in perspective. Subconsciously I held unhealthy expectations and they were not even my own. I needed to remind myself that I need to measure myself on my own terms and no one else’s.

My measure of success is to live every day as aligned as possible with my own truth and luckily this can’t be measured by a number of likes and by none other than myself. Contributing to an evolving world, being a good person, accepting myself, following my own path and setting my own intentions is success to me. Am I able to control how others view my efforts? No, but I am able to accept it and continue to embrace my own truth, my own uniqueness, my own path nevertheless. Will it be bumpy at times? Yes, it will, it just happens. While contemplating my situation one of my favourite tarot card interpretations for “The World – reversed” popped up. It states:

The World reversed can signify that you want to fulfil a big goal or complete a big project, but you’re not taking all the steps necessary to get there. You may opt for the easiest or quickest path to attain your goal, but it won’t lead to the outcome you intend. Climbing a mountain from the bottom up is an entirely different experience from getting a helicopter ride to the peak, even though the destination is the same. You need to experience the trials and tribulations along the way so you can learn and grow. And when you do reach your goal, you will enjoy such a fantastic sense of achievement. Don’t be afraid to set stretch goals for yourself, even if it means enduring hardships or challenges along the way; it will make the victory even sweeter.

Yes, it might be a stretch goal to follow my own path vs sticking to the tried, known and successful path in IT that I have been following for the past 20 years. I feel that my life is too precious to live it on someone else’s terms, fulfilling someone else’s goals. I feel in tune with myself and I am willing to climb the mountain from the bottom up. Are you ready to climb to the top of your mountain? What does your peak look like? How do you measure yourself? What does success mean to you? Think about it, meditate on it. You might be surprised what you find out. 

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